Amy Preyer: Cancer Sucks
I do not say this to be crass or to offend anyone, but to sum up what cancer does – it really sucks.
I had been 40 for 23 days when I found a lump in my right breast while showering. My beautiful, miracle baby boy was 10 months old. My husband, Roy, and I had been through so much to have this baby: in-vitro, preeclampsia, premature birth, an emergency C-section after 38 hours of labor, NICU for 11 days, and cellulitis after he was born. He Completely Stole Our Hearts- I COULD NOT LEAVE HIM. Between the biopsy and the phone call to tell me I had cancer (yes, that is how they do it), all I could do is hold my baby boy, rock him, and pray to God that I could see him grow into a man. My cousin, Mike, who is here today from Texas, did not get the opportunity to grow up with his mother due to Breast Cancer- she became his guardian angel when he was 13 months – and I did not want that to happen to our family again.
I had a double mastectomy and 6 months of chemo. I had really long hair when I got sick, and I clearly remember having it cut in Phase 1 (as I call it) before I lost it. I was really upset about losing my hair and about the haircut. On the way home from the salon, I asked my mother, who was with me for the cut, to stop at Target so I could get RED lipstick. I have worn it all day, every day since. A little bright in so much dark.
Other than physically – all of the fillings in my teeth falling out, I lost my eyelashes 3 times, I gained 40 pounds with chemo, I was so tired that I had to use a self-drive cart at the grocery store, and my nails are still so thin that a straight pin will pierce them – there is so much emotionally, spiritually, and psychologically that happens with cancer too. This can remain for the rest of your life. I actually had a major emotional break through this past weekend at Hope Held By A Horse, over 4 years later. Nothing can prepare you for the toll cancer will take on you in so many ways.
Honestly though, having breast cancer is one of the best things that has ever happened to me. That sounds absolutely crazy, I know, but I take so much more appreciation in everything. I love God fiercely, I make my family a priority above everything else, I found a career that I absolutely enjoy, I focus on relationships, I cut the negative out of my life and I embrace change. I love with all of my heart and do not hold back any more. My life is Good!
But Cancer Sucks.
I share all of this with you so you can glimpse why Komen Colorado is so important. I have lost all four of my grandparents, two aunts, a best friend, and two close friends to cancer. We must work together to bring awareness, find a cure and help each other fight! So many of the programs in which I have participated, and so many resources, come from Komen Colorado and the contacts/friends/ sisters I have met through them. Komen Colorado helps with many different needs when it comes to your breast cancer journey- they are not only about awareness. Mammograms, transportation, education, outreach, resources- Komen Colorado does all of these things and so many more, but cannot without your support – and we thank you for giving that today.